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The Hga pt.5


OK. So-most of what I thought I knew of the HGA was completely wrong. Not entirely, but my understanding only went so far. Tonight, on the full moon, I prayed my heart out. Then, I turned my gaze inward....and click. Something Happened....haha. A wonderful awareness.  A beauty, a state of awareness, an understanding. To be absolutely frank, Peregrin's understanding of this was more true, more insightful than my own.  The forms I perceived and communed with were a necessary step for me, but they weren't complete in nature.... because they had forms at all. I was still looking Outward-instead of experiencing inward. Those forms-the perception of them-are a layer of separation... This is not coming out right, but I don't have the words. I want to live my entire life with the understanding I had for those 10 or so minutes. This was an amazing evening-I wish I could describe it in a way that makes sense.

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  1. Rufus OpusDecember 4, 2009 at 10:20 AM

    Congrats! You made it through the hard part. Welcome to the club.

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  2. UnknownDecember 4, 2009 at 1:26 PM

    Thanks RO! I see now why nobody writes about this clearly. You can't, really. Has to be experienced; words aren't enough...at least, not the one's I can pull up. =)

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