Sala Malongo,
Man, y'all. I find that I now spend the vaaaaast majority of my sorcerous/meditative time doing work for others. Which is awesome in many ways, as I've gotten very skilled at what I do.
I've got no time for the experimentation, though. No time just fooling about. Sometimes I'm tempted to just say fuck it, and return to just doing things for myself....but I'm a priest, a Tata Nkisi. So I have duties beyond entertainment, and beyond my own development.
Gotta balance this stage in the life as well. It's interesting, at the very least. I would have been overjoyed when I was a young aspiring wizard in my 20's to have this kind of problem, haha. Now I look back wistfully at the days when I could meditate for 4 hours straight--or at all-without scheduling a meeting with myself on Google Calendar.
Many of the folks who are clients become good friends, some become students, others end up becoming sorcerer/priests themselves. And they are a blessing. So while often doing the work is hard and without much in the way of appreciation, in full, because of these awesome people, it's net Gold.
Sometimes I just want to spend a day geeking out on cool shit. Haha. Gotta re-tune the work/life balance.
Such is life.
Man, y'all. I find that I now spend the vaaaaast majority of my sorcerous/meditative time doing work for others. Which is awesome in many ways, as I've gotten very skilled at what I do.
I've got no time for the experimentation, though. No time just fooling about. Sometimes I'm tempted to just say fuck it, and return to just doing things for myself....but I'm a priest, a Tata Nkisi. So I have duties beyond entertainment, and beyond my own development.
Gotta balance this stage in the life as well. It's interesting, at the very least. I would have been overjoyed when I was a young aspiring wizard in my 20's to have this kind of problem, haha. Now I look back wistfully at the days when I could meditate for 4 hours straight--or at all-without scheduling a meeting with myself on Google Calendar.
Many of the folks who are clients become good friends, some become students, others end up becoming sorcerer/priests themselves. And they are a blessing. So while often doing the work is hard and without much in the way of appreciation, in full, because of these awesome people, it's net Gold.
Sometimes I just want to spend a day geeking out on cool shit. Haha. Gotta re-tune the work/life balance.
Such is life.
Nsala Malekum,
ReplyDeleteThat's a beautiful, and powerful insight/acknowledgement. For a moment I thought to myself: "what a privilege to be in his shoes- to hold the power, abilities and wisdom to help others. (Something i long to do both spiritually and in the art of medicine)." But as you accurately pointed out after reflecting upon your "younger self," we ought to be careful what we wish for, yet when you know and you feel the path you must follow it all eventually comes into place (or so I am hopeful for). That would be a wonderful blessing btw... As you also very nicely pointed out, one must find the work/life balance, which is something I've been striving for in these last few years as I try to focus more on life and immersing myself in the forces of nature and spirituality and much less on the often grueling monotony of our daily working lives.
Btw quick question: does Sala Malongo means the same thing as Nsala Malekum?
Also, Ive been sporadically reading some if your posts here and there when they pop up in my google searches. Until right now that's 3am and randomly woke up again thirsty for knowledge, decide to finally open an account to ask you some questions.
Is there another medium, perhaps a little more private, to do so?
Thank you in advance!